Life Inspiration and Lessons: Glamour Girl- Carly Fleischmann

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So I just watched an episode of “YouTubers’ React to Carly Fleischman – Speechless YouTube Channel” and I was astounded, amazed and mind blown by what I witnessed.

Carly has autism and for the first 11 years of her life, she wasn’t able to communicate with anyone because she isn’t able to speak a word due to her oral motor apraxia. However when she turned 11, she was able to type on a laptop: ‘HURT’ and ‘HELP’. This was apparently the revelation to her parents that there was, and still is actually, a lot going on inside her that she just isn’t able to share easily with others because she cannot talk. It turns out, she is actually a very intelligent, witty and funny human being.

With the use of her typing skills and laptop, she started her own blog, Twitter and now, she even has her own YouTube channel which I mentioned above. In that channel, she has currently 3 videos and one of them features an interview with Channing Tatum. And, oh my goodness you guys, she made me laugh for the entire video. Carly was being spontaneous, engaging, hilarious and witty; all while also being scared because she was interviewing her celebrity crush. She also mentioned her dream of becoming a talk show host and in all honesty, she should be. She should keep following this dream and achieve it because she can. She can do it and she is doing it and that’s why she is such an inspiration to me.

Another video on her channel is a song called ‘Glamour Girl‘. She collaborated with Kaitlin Kozell, a girl who was bullied before and now faces challenges due to low self esteem, and Lil Jaxe, a boy with speech impediment yet is a very fluid rapper and has earned worldwide attention for it. All three of them brought out this song with a very strong message. This song brings everyone the message of “it doesn’t matter what your challenges are as long as you’re ready to try to overcome them”. This song is… inspiring. This song brought me to tears by how sincere, sweet and fascinating it is. This song resonated within my heart and soul and made the dams in my eyes break. This song spoke to the depths of my heart and mind and said: ‘Don’t ever give up because there will always be a brighter future which you can make yours. Even though it’s a struggle with other people around you discouraging you or there are outside forces pushing you back, it’s okay because you can still make it.’ 

Honestly, all three of them are just such huge inspirations to me. I wrote this to help spread awareness of all of these brilliant messages and one more: to never judge anyone and truly get to know and understand them first. You never know what path they’ve walked, what their obstacle course in life is and what they’ve done to get where they are now. People shouldn’t be categorised immediately based on their physical appearance or how they live. For example, Carly was labelled as “mentally retarded” because she couldn’t speak but in reality, she is a very intellectual person who is able to make deep insights and is just unable to say what she wants to say. However, she didn’t let this deter her from moving forward to where she wants to go… and look at where she is now.

These three young people are representatives of these messages and I know that there must be so many more people out there who are in similar standings. And I want to try my best to be a representative of these messages by living by them. I sincerely hope that these messages spread to as many people as possible because we need more people like this. That’s why I humbly request you through this post, to try your best to also keep these messages in your heart and mind and live by them to let your actions speak to others and influence them.

I’m including links to their websites/ social media so that you can also show them support and, as Carly puts it, go “right to the horse’s mouth” in order to hear what they have to say. I don’t think- no, I know- I cannot express what they went through in my own words nor do I have the right to. However, I still want to write this post to share my thoughts and feelings about this serious matter because of how inspired I am.

Links:

Carly Fleischmann:

• Twitter
• Speechless with Carly Fleischmann
• Carly’s Voice | Changing the World of Autism
• YouTube

Kaitlin Kozell:

• YouTube
• Twitter

Lil Jaxe:

• YouTube
• Facebook

I’m also going to include some links to websites of autism and oral motor apraxia if you want to know more about them:

• Childhood Apraxia of Speech
• Apraxia – Kids
• Autism Speaks
• Autism- Kid’s Health

Thank you so much for taking the time to read this post. I hope that you are inspired by what these three have accomplished and what they are still doing and I hope you push forward in the journey of your life.

~little Purple.Mage

 

 

 

Poison

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What I’m going to be talking about can be a sensitive issue. While going about my day, I remembered a quote from Pinterest: “Holding on to anger is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die”. It’s something that struck a chord in me because of how simple yet completely relatable it is. Holding grudges or holding onto anger can be because of several things but in the end, you’re only hurting yourself.

I apologize for the weird placement of the signature. Just ignore that cuz I’m bad at editing photos xD

Personally, I actually can’t hold a grudge or stay angry no matter how hard I try. The main reason being: it’s just too tiring. Yep, I’m literally too lazy to hold a grudge. The thing is, I’m the kind of person that cannot rest easy if something is bothering me. Holding a grudge or being angry definitely fit into this category. If I have those kind of thoughts or feelings inside me, I will do everything I can to solve it just to get it out of me. Otherwise, I’m just going to keep thinking about it all day, everyday. I’ll ponder about it when I’m cooking, writing, playing games and I might even dream about it.So you see, this gets in the way of my daily life so I take longer to do my task and thinking about it requires energy. So, I just solve it as soon as I can.

Now you may ask, “But Purple, doesn’t it also require energy to think about solutions to getting rid of the nasty thoughts? But Purple, what if you’ve been thinking all day to find solutions that it tires you out as well?” Well, listen up little mages: I like problem solving. No lie. I like finding solutions to problems. I like putting myself up to the challenge of saying Sayonara to the stupid thoughts and feelings inside of me.

**Before I continue on to the next paragraph, I’m just going to clarify that “holding a grudge” or “staying angry” is worded as “problem” (just so I don’t have to keep writing the actual phrase). Okay, carry on:**

And, being the nerd I am, here’s something I learned in Math that applies to the real life: there can be three types of answers to any problem: definite, indeterminate or none at all. If the problem has a definite answer, then you just have to keep working until you get to the correct one. This isn’t tiring for me since I see it as using my energy wisely. If the problem has either an indeterminate answer or none at all, well, you just need to learn to leave it like that. This doesn’t bother me anymore because I know the problem is not within me or it’s just out of my power to fix or it’s just naturally like that. Thus, there’s really no negativity inside me so I’m not bothered by anything. BAM! Math is useful.

Now, I know that others don’t necessarily share the same thought process as I do. And that’s okay. You can solve your problems in your own pace and whatever way you want. All I’m really going to ask of you is this: please don’t stay angry or hold grudges. As Dan-Senpai (danisnotonfire) said: “you need to do everything in your power to be happy”. You can’t really do that if you’re drinking poison.

Thank you for reading, you guys are awesome!

~little Purple.Mage

My realization.

Hi.

These past few days, I haven’t been really feeling great. I was procrastinating to no end and I just wasn’t getting much work done. I kept putting off stuff I had to do for my uni applications and, aside from doing regular house chores, I was just eating, sleeping, playing and watching- yeah, not exactly a healthy image. I’m guessing I’m just trying to make up for the amount of rest I didn’t have this past school year but in all honesty, I didn’t like – no, in fact I detested- what I was doing to myself.

In terms of applying to uni, for the past few months I have been stressing whether or not I would be able to actually get in. I’ve now been blessed by this amazing opportunity of attending uni yet it takes a great amount of effort from me to do all the stuff I need to do without complaining or putting it off. I was being an ungrateful and whiny child. I was, well I guess I still am in some aspects, scared of growing up. Although some stuff excites me, I’m just scared of making mistakes in my application processes, saying the wrong things when making appointments- I’m also a bit of a perfectionist so that really doesn’t help me in these cases. Then last night I had a realization. I am blessed with a future. I am blessed with the opportunity to grow up, something that is denied to many. This realization came to me after I watched a video about the devastating events that had happened this past weekend. I couldn’t believe myself for being ungrateful. I couldn’t believe I had the audacity to complain about doing “grown- up stuff” when I could be in a much more terrible situation. I hated the part of me that had done that. I hated that I had to wake up to the real world in these circumstances. I just… I couldn’t believe myself. At all.

At that point I started writing in my journal to rationalize my thoughts and feelings. I wrote down what I hated about what I was doing. I berated myself over and over again for thinking and feeling this way. Yet I knew this wasn’t enough or wasn’t going to do anything. So I started to pray. I started to apologize and ask for forgiveness for all the negativity I’ve been expressing the past few days. I started to pray for the guidance to be able to do what was productive and useful instead of straying down the wrong path. I continue to pray for all the victims of this past weekend – that they, and all their loved ones and friends, may find peace.

It’s just been a day since I had this realization. With the guidance of God, I started to change my perspective in life. I wanted- and I will- make each day count. While I do have all these plans set for my future destinations, I’ll just walk down that path, one day, one step at a time. I continue to pray each and every day for the guidance, courage and the willpower to do what is right – not just for me, but for everyone in this world.

Thank you for reading this 🙂

~little Purple.Mage

 

 

Battles

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This post may be a bit confusing since I find it hard to explain in words what exactly I’m experiencing right now, so please just bear with me.

For the past few hours, I haven’t been able to concentrate on anything. At all. Every time I try to study, sleep or watch  a video,  I feel as if I should be doing something else. Now as I’ve mentioned in my last two posts, I’m currently in the middle of exams  so I feel like this unsettling feeling just bubbling inside of me shouldn’t be prioritized. I figured I should either study now or rest then study later. But there’s just a something inside of me that stops me from being efficient with my time.

Perhaps it is the exam stress. I’m not sure. In my last post I was feeling really giddy and excited and now it’s like my feelings have done a complete 180. But what I have noticed that is common in both times is that no matter what kind of feeling it is, it still keeps me from my main goal of using my time wisely.

Now I have gone through these kinds of battles before where your emotions are conflicting with what you actually need to do. But it’s never really gotten to this point where I just lie down and talk to myself about random stuff. Usually, I’d be giving myself pep talks or try to speak out loud about what’s bothering me. This time however, my thoughts just tumbled out of my mouth with no specific meaning or order whatsoever. I’d be talking about my phone charging then suddenly comment about how hot the room was. Just random everyday stuff that wasn’t even remotely related to my problem of wanting to be efficient with my time but not being able to do so.

Looking back at it now, maybe it’s just my way of trying to distract myself from stress or to stop myself from fully panicking. In the middle of it all, I tried talking to my friend and watching my favorite Youtubers because I didn’t want to think that I was going through that on my own. It helped snap me out of the conflict for a while but the feeling still lingers.

I guess what I can take from this little experience is being able to accept what’s happening inside of you. Even if it doesn’t seem right, maybe it might help to just let your mind wander for a bit and calm down before refocusing on your priorities. Sometimes, it may be more efficient to just accept your current situation and pick a battle that is more worth fighting.

Choose your battles wisely,

~little Purple.Mage