Unique Blogger Award

HI :3

First of all, thank you so much to WanderLust for nominating me for this award! Her blog and posts are really awesome and you guys should go over there and read it! This award really deserves the title of “Unique” because of how… well, unique, the rules are. I had a ton of fun doing this and I hope you guys enjoy reading it too!

Here are the rules:

• Thank the blogger who nominated you and include a link to their blog.
• Answer their 3 questions.
• Include one meme and one quote you really like.
• Nominate 8-13 bloggers to receive this award.
• Ask your nominees 3 UNIQUE questions.
• Add a link to the awards creator: Kate Gold- Teen girl meets world

The Questions I was asked were:

1) What would you do if you became president of your country?

In reality, I would never considering becoming president because I just don’t think I’m made for that kind of thing (waaay too stressful!). However, in an alternate universe where I become president, I would first address and try my best to solve the corruption that’s ruining country. That sounds pretty far- fetched considering there will always be some corruption but, at least trying my best to do something about it might help to solve the other problems in the country.

2) What is the best joke you know/ remember/ can find?

*Cough* My life *Cough*

Anyway, it’s more of a rhyme than a joke but here it is:

Mary had a little lamb who’s fleece was white as snow

It went out to a club one night

And dropped it hella low

There’s probably others but I can’t remember xD

3) Do you have any famous lookalikes?

Nope. I haven’t come across anyone famous who looks like me. When I become famous, I’ll update you guys.

The meme that actually made me laugh and not just think “lol”:

My favourite quote right now:

“You should never make fun of something that a person can’t change about themselves” – Phil Lester

My nominees:

I think what Wanderlust did, nominating her last 10 followers, is a great idea to know more about them so that’s what I’m going to do as well.

• Squishyandbubbles
• thepunkbutterfly
• Sabiscuit
• youmustbehighxo
• Zoe169
• Ivy
• The Falling Fairie
• Hannah
• kenzieequinn
• sarcastikbeggar

Here are my questions:

1. If you had to associate yourself with one scented candle, what would it be and why?
2. If you came across a book that detailed your future, would you want to open it and read it?
3. What do you think is the meaning of life?

I hope those questions weren’t too weird and I sincerely want to know what answer you guys have for them. Thank you once again to Wanderlust for nominating me and thank you for reading this post. You guys are awesome!

~little Purple.Mage

Edit: I accidentally posted the link of WanderLust as the award’s creator. The actual link is posted above and is to Kate Gold. Sorry for the mistake!

Life Update

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It’s been so long since I posted something and I really meese you guys! This post is just gonna be a general life update on what I’ve been doing this past week. Firstly, I was able to sort out most of the stuff I needed to focus on (which is why I took the break anyway.) Thank you for your patience and understanding through this time!

I also cut my hair so now its just a bit past my shoulders when before it used to go near my stomach. I kinda felt like Mulan when I was cutting it off but I really liked how it turned out altogether! To be honest, I don’t really like having long hair- I only grew it out for graduation and prom but now that those are out of the way, I finally cut it. Also, it’s suuper hot where I am so honestly long hair is just such a pain.

What else… oh yeah, I’ve been going out with some friends for the last time to say goodbye. It’s funny because on the actual days we say goodbye, I don’t feel sad or cry then it’s only after a few days does it start hitting me. That’s when I started crying because I have this (weird? Irrational?) fear that my friends will forget about me after some time. However, I talked to my best friend about it and he helped to calm me down and I also talked to Jay about it and she gave really solid advice. Thanks Jay!!

Speaking of, the past week have been really a-meese-ing thanks to the goodle and glamarous Cereal Squad! Shout out to them for making me smile and laugh 😀 I’m also really excited for that song we’re doing – it’s amazing how you guys just went with it as soon as we came up with the idea. I hope the Cereal Squad will stay cereasly glamarous, goodle and ameesing!

The past couple of days, I spent time with one of my friends and slept over at my other best friend’s house. Since I don’t get to see them as often anymore, it was such a great feeling to just hang out with them, eating, playing video games, watching YouTube vids and movies. We also had an awesome time in her dinner party, because OMG, the food was amazing!! I’m also not gonna see them for who- knows- how long so I’m really treasuring every minute I spend with them and making sure it counts.

My SD card also crashed…. RIP to all my music, apps and other files that were on there. At least my photos are backed up. REMINDER: back up all your files regularly – it will save you from painful hours of panic and trying to get all your stuff back.

On a final note, get ready for some awesome posts I’ve planned to put up since I was gone for quite awhile. Thank you guys for reading this, you’re awesome!

~little Purple.Mage

A fangirl’s perspective

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In addition to being an introvert, I’m also a fangirl. In its simplest definition, a fangirl/boy is someone who obsess over fictional characters. There are many other definitions that, believe me, ain’t pretty. We’re often portrayed as girls/ boys that squeal, giggle, and clap our hands in excitement or faint when we see the object/ person we obsess over. We’re often ridiculed for loving something that isn’t real or something that we will never have. We’re often seen as crazy for loving fictional characters/stuff so much that we have too many feels. And this is where the dam problem is.

Aight, lemme set something straight here people. *Rant mode activated*

First of all, we ain’t all about that image of us always squealing, giggling, daydreaming or fainting. Sure, our actions may seem strange when you see us obsessing about our favourite fandoms. We may be unable to complete sentences or speak so fast that you have trouble understanding what we’re trying to say. But that’s because we’re so overwhelmed with the information we have to process that it all becomes too much for us to handle. We may always be in our rooms, locked away for hours but that can be due to 3 things: 1) We are currently in the process of watching/ reading/ listening to our fandoms; 2) Our minds are in too much awe after experiencing their epicness that we just kinda sit there in silence for awhile and 3) We are hard at work on various projects: it could be fanart/ theories/ fanfiction/gifs or anything else.

Bottom line is: our passion is often mistaken for complete obsession and it is this passion that leads us to act the way we do and even inspires us to produce works.

Secondly, I don’t see why people aren’t allowed to love something/ someone without judgement just because the object of our affection isn’t real. So what if they’re fictional? These characters have a childhood, personalities, likes and dislikes and dreams just like any other person. And it may be due to this reason that within ourselves, us fangirls/boys see them as something more than a character on screen or on a page. Within us, the characters are brought to life and we have built a strong emotional bond with them especially after seeing them progress in their respective lives/ journeys.

Additionally, I know of a lot of  people who turn to reading/ watching/ listening in order to escape the cruelties of reality. Even I did the same. This is another way or reason why we have an emotional connection to these characters because it’s as if being with them through watching/ listening/ reading has helped us forget or even solve our real- life problems and we now hold these characters in a high and respected status.

And finally, how are we crazy for having too much feels over our fandoms? Other people with different passions such as those in sports/ fashion/ politics, etc. often have very passionate feelings over a certain topic and they talk and show it in public too. Now, I’m not saying that’s a bad thing because everyone has their own personal passions and interests. I also understand that the world is flawed and that there will always be someone out there to criticize people for their passion. However, I greatly respect people who do not judge other people’s interests since I know that there are many people who, in general, refuse to talk or even show emotions about their interests because they have been shot down about them before.

As my final message, I’d like to say that even after these struggles and after all this time, always will I be a fangirl.

~little Purple.Mage

PS to all my fellow fangirls/boys out there: if you’re hit with the feels, don’t cry, CRAFT!

My writing experience

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Constructs an amazing story in my head with witty characters, awesome battle scenes and a worthy plot. *sits down to write* “How do I word?”

So as someone who has tried sooo many times to write a fictional story, I have come across this struggle each time. I’ve also seen many posts about it on the Internet so it’s comforting to know that I’m not the only one who gets stuck on doing this. Right now, I’m debating whether or not to start anew or complete the one I started many years ago.

While I always daydream about being able to write my own fictional story, I actually find it harder than and very different from blogging. In blogging, I just have to be myself and write down all my thoughts and feelings. It also seems to be much easier to gather inspiration for writing my blog since I always jot down any thought that comes into my head for later use.

Now don’t get me wrong, I love writing. It’s just the actual process of doing it that is hard for me to do. Before writing the story itself, I do research on certain topics to make my plot seem more realistic which helps me learn about stuff outside a classroom. This has included weapons, places, codes/ languages and so much more. So don’t judge writers for searching up weird things because I’ve had to justify many times, it’s for the story.

I also note down any specific features of my characters’ personalities, background stories and looks. In doing so, I’m able to embody different personalities and for some characters, I feel like a proud parent because I envision their progress and achievements all while knowing about their insecurities and strengths. I really love writing about my characters because for some of them, I can see a bit of me in them (does that even make sense??) such as their hopes, dreams, weaknesses and the like.

Another thing I do is to jot down any specific events in the story’s timeline like battle scenes, the ending and even the beginning. And sometimes, I get sooo wrapped up in this process that when I get to connecting these events, I blank out. I seriously find it extremely difficult to be able to write the middle or little scenes because, even though they’re not fillers, I just can’t think of how or what to put in them. Such is the struggle of being a fictional writer.

And don’t even get me started on… the title.

~little Purple.Mage

Is this goodbye?

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It’s that time of the year when students are going through their exams or have already done so (i.e. ME). My exams finished on the 20th and the past days have definitely been busy. I attended a lot of gatherings with my friends and teachers because it’s almost time to say goodbye to most of them. Then, on June 1st, we graduate.

Even though I have read many stories about people’s high school/ secondary graduation, it still hasn’t hit me how monumental this event will be. Maybe the idea of us graduating without even knowing whether we passed the IB or not (our results come out in July) is just weird for me; but the school arranged the graduation this early so that most of our year could attend. I’m actually quite relieved that they did, otherwise I don’t think I’ll be able to get another chance to properly say goodbye to all my friends and teachers.

Last month, I had most of my friends sign my book with messages or drawings. All of them made me smile and even some made me cry because I slowly came to realize that I won’t be able to see any of them that much, or maybe not even at all. But this is where I ask myself, is it really goodbye?

For the first half of my life, I moved around quite a lot, I never really stayed in one place for too long so I never got to make any close friends which I still keep in contact with. Because of this, I guess I just got used to saying goodbye to others and not having any life-long friends. That’s why I find it a miracle that I was actually able to stay in the same place and the same school this time for 7 years (2009- 2016). Now it’s kinda the opposite since people say goodbye to me but I’m also able to still keep in touch with them.

In all honesty, I find it hard to keep in touch with other people. I rarely talk to my friends who have moved away and the only person I keep in constant contact with is my best friend. I don’t want to say that “best friend” is a title because it’s more of an unsaid promise that was made after she left. And because of all the miles between us and the time difference, we don’t really talk everyday but when we do, it’s as if nothing has changed between us at all and that is our unsaid promise.

And knowing me, there are only 2-3 people I know I will be keeping in touch with for a long time. I prefer to keep it this way since they are the only ones I am fully comfortable with even though I sometimes have this irrational fear that they’ll forget about me. However, I try my hardest not to let these kinds of thoughts rule my mind because at the end of the day, it all comes down to my trust in them. While I have some trust issues due to stuff that happened in the past, I’ve come to trust my friends unconditionally after all we’ve been through and shared.

The people I now know as my closest friends have come into my life for a reason and for me, that reason is that they are a blessing. So, I don’t think this is really going to be goodbye, at least, I’d like to hope not

~little Purple.Mage

I’m out there, but in here.

HI :3

Before I start off this post, I just want to say that it might be a bit messy to read. My thoughts have literally just been everywhere but I feel like I needed to pour them all out in this one message.

First of all, a little story. A few nights ago, I was out with my friends having dinner. It was really good, we were all having fun just eating and talking. At one point, the conversation shifted to relationships and while I was listening to everyone else talk I realized, wait… I’m the only single one here. Now, this definitely wasn’t the problem. I didn’t mind being single so I decided to crack a joke about it: “Hey, I just realized that I’m the only one single here… oh wait, no- there’s still my fictional crushes. Too bad they don’t exist in this world.” That’s when my friend looked at me in confusion across the table and said, “I’m just so confused… how can you like someone that isn’t real?”

Now, the fictional crushes I have all span from characters in books to anime to movies. In my spare time, I love to read headcannons about them, search up their fanart and basically be a fangirl. (Literally, one of my biggest confusions with these situations are shipping the characters I love with others or shipping them with me… does that make sense?) I understand that there are some people who don’t really delve as deeply as I do in the fictional world and I respect that. But I was still slightly appalled that my friend asked that.

*Rant mode activated* (This isn’t exactly what I said in reply, but it’s close enough)

“Because they look amazing and hot. Because their character descriptions are so detailed to the point that you know almost every little thing about them. Because you know their likes and their dislikes. Because you know all about their dreams, goals and fears. Because you learn about and/ or can live with them through their childhood and watch them become the person who they are right now. Because you can turn to them whenever you want to, just like you would to a friend. Because you start to feel an emotional attachment to them, and suddenly, it’s as if they’re not fictional anymore.”

By the end of that explanation, I could still see she was doubtful so I decided to drop it. Like I said, I was used to people not being able to relate with the stuff that I’m into and I don’t bother forcing them to. You do you. But sometimes, at the end of the day, I guess it just makes me feel a bit left out and weary since it’s considered weird to fangirl over something that “isn’t real”. That hasn’t stopped me from doing it though. That feeling of being left out just lasts for a short while so I don’t really like or even want to dwell on it (lest I start overthinking things again).

This brings me to my next story. Today, I was out with my friends again to have lunch with some of our teachers to celebrate the end of the year (No school!!! WOO!!) We were a much bigger group this time and really, only one of my best friends were there so I expected to just talk to them for most of the time. Again everyone was talking together, but since it was a much bigger group this time, I found it better to listen than talk. I also didn’t really relate to what they were saying so I mostly kept quiet. I am an introvert and I’m proud of it, but sometimes I just can’t help but think…

Sometimes, I’m just torn between forcing myself to socialize with everyone else or to just keep to myself. Sometimes, I just feel like even though I try to make the effort of speaking, no one really hears me, much less understand me. Sometimes, I wonder why I even go out to these events when I don’t really bring much to the situation.

In a world where there’s more extroverts than introverts, it can be difficult to find our place in it. But whoever said we need to find one place and stay there? I’m constantly travelling between my own world and reality that sometimes, I feel out of place or restless in one of them. But that’s okay. I’m not being forced to be stationary, I shouldn’t be and neither should anyone else be. There are times when I have to remind myself of this idea but that’s okay too. As long as there’s a balance in my life, I guess I don’t really mind whether I’m out there or in here.

~little Purple.Mage

I just need to say something

THANK YOU :3

So usually I start my posts off by saying hi, (btw, HI :3) but I just needed to say thank you. To me those two words hold such a special and deep meaning. It’s one of the first phrases that I have been taught to use ever since I was a young kid but only recently has this phrase meant so much to me.

These past few months have been really draining for me: physically, mentally and emotionally. There were so many times where I just felt like stopping. I wanted everything to just stop: all the deadlines, tests, responsibilities, duties, everything. It felt so exhausting to have to carry all these burdens all by myself and I just needed some time to rest. There were a few times when I  broke down in the privacy of my own room, just so I could let out all the unhealthy frustration in me. In one of those times, a tiny voice inside of me whispered, “be thankful for what you have”.

It whispered so quietly that it passed through my head in only a second but it was enough to make everything stop. That tiny whisper never grew in size, it just kept going around my head over and over again to the point that it drowned out all the other negative thoughts that were screaming and fighting inside of me. It felt as if time had stopped and I was able to remember the first thing (or in this case, person) that I was thankful for, my sister who is also the main reason for my smile. At that moment, I had calmed down and that tiny whisper comes to me every single time negativity screams inside. Granted, I don’t always relax straight away but the whisper still reminds me that despite everything else, there is always something I can say “thank you” for.

To me, appreciation is one of the greatest aspects of life and I know that I surely can’t speak for everyone when I say this but, I think that humans need appreciation to survive. Sure, it may not be the first thing in your head all the time, but it could be lingering somewhere in the back of your mind. For me, the thought of me being useless has crossed my mind way too many times. I guess that the reason why I started thinking this way is because (and I’m going to sound really selfish here so please don’t hold it against me) I rarely hear the words “thank you” said to me with such deep meaning. I really didn’t want to sound like a selfish idiot there but that thought really did cross my mind. And because of it, I started to be more meaningful whenever I say”thank you” for someone or something. I didn’t want anyone else to feel the useless way that I did and even saying “thank you” helped me remember that I am not useless, that I am appreciated.

Learning to be truly grateful is one of life’s greatest lessons and sometimes it may even come too late or too harshly. At this point in time, I’m starting to say goodbye to many people that I’ve been with for the past 5-6 years. Sometimes, it makes me emotional to think that I’ll never see any of my closest friends ever again so to show my appreciation for them and to remind myself the positive impact that they’ve had in my life, I started to say “thank you” more meaningfully. And in this way it also reminds me that even though I experienced rough times with my friends, I’m grateful that they’re still by my side after every thing that has happened.

So I am thankful. I’m thankful for my parents who have shown their love for me through so many different ways, no matter how big or small. I’m thankful for my sister who manages to brighten my darkest days. I’m thankful for my friends who were there for me in the good times and the bad. I’m thankful for the air I breathe, the food I’m able to eat and share, the clean water to drink, the clothes that I have and that there is a roof over my head. I’m thankful that I am able to have the opportunity to go to school to learn and brighten my future. I’m thankful to the people I’ve met through this blog who, in the small amount of time I’ve known them, have been so supportive and nice. I’m thankful that I’m alive and able to experience all of these wonderful things.

Thank you to anyone who took the time to read this and I hope you can share with me anything (or anyone!) that you are thankful for,

~little Purple.Mage

Introversion Myths

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So a few days ago, I found something on Pinterest that caught my eye. It was titled “Top ten myths about introverts” and since I personally related to some of it, I decided to write a post dedicated to my fellow introverts.

No. 1:”Introverts don’t like to talk”

To a certain extent, this is true for me. I don’t like to make small talk to people during parties or gatherings simply because I find it extremely difficult to think of something to talk about off the top of my head. Like, what are you supposed to talk about? The weather? Current events? …I can’t even think of any more options (see what I mean?).

Just don’t get me wrong, introverts can actually talk your ear off if you let them. There are tons of things I’m passionate about such as: ‘reasons why I don’t like horror movies’ or ‘best foods I’ve ever tried’ or ‘why anime isn’t “for kids”‘ (don’t even get me started on that last one). In fact, there’s actually a lot going on in my mind that just doesn’t make its way out of my mouth. For me, if I’m not interested in the topic then I won’t have anything to say about it so I just don’t talk.

No. 2:”Introverts don’t like people”

It’s not that we don’t like people. And I know that I can’t speak for all the introverts out there but in my opinion, I can find it tiring to be with loads of people all at once. If the group consists of a small number of really close friends then I know I’ll find it fun to just be with them. However, when you put us in any other social events then we’ll most likely be wishing to be at our secret haven (aka ‘our room’) and will find any excuse to politely leave.

I remember that during one party held at my aunt’s house, I quietly excused myself to go to the bathroom to brush my teeth and I felt so relieved for this 5 minutes of quiet time. It may seem ridiculous to others, but to us introverts getting time to ourselves is really important. It’s like our way of regaining energy and having a rest from socializing.

No. 3:”Introverts always want to be alone”

This links to my previous point and, no, it’s still not true. We don’t always want to be alone, we just need some time to be alone. I don’t think any human being enjoys solitude and that holds true for introverts. Sometimes, I think others forget that we are humans too but we are just different from most people. We still need to be around a select few people in our everyday lives. Usually, we hang out with people that we’re comfortable with, such as: a friend, sibling or parent.

And it’s actually much easier to debunk this myth in this day and age. With the help of the internet, we can interact with others without physically being together (thanks, social media!). Technically, this means we aren’t really alone since we are communicating with others for a (long) period of time.

Finally No. 4:”Introverts can fix themselves and become extroverts”

NO. NO. No. Just no. We cannot ‘fix’ ourselves because we are not mindless machines that come with a manual. This is just how we are. This isn’t a problem that needs to be resolved. We are people with our own attitude and personalities and life stories and feelings and thoughts. This goes out to everyone reading this, no matter if you’re an introvert, extrovert or something in between: there is nothing wrong with being an introvert.

(And just a side note: anyone who discriminates against anyone else for being an introvert OR an extrovert is just plain rude.)

And that’s it for now 🙂 I hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I did writing. Let me know if you relate to any of these or to any other myths included in the list.

Peace out!

~little Purple.Mage

Adventure begin!

HI :3

Before I get into the main part of this post, I just want to say Happy Mother’s Day to the best(est) Mom out there!!!! (Mine obviously….)

 

Now I’m not sure if this is because of the soda I just had, but I’m feeling pretty hyper right now. And since is the first official adventure post of the little Purple.Mage, I figured I’d start it off on a high note :^D

As I said, I’m in such a great mood right now – almost to the point that I can’t think of what to do (even though I should be studying – Physics paper tomorrow!!!). Maybe it is the soda, maybe it’s something else. You see, recently I’ve been thinking about my plans for the coming weeks. My final exam is next week Friday and after that I’m FREE!!! So I guess I’m feeling really excited about what’s to come. You know that moment at the beginning of a game or series or book when you have no idea (well, maybe you have some idea) what adventures await or who you’ll meet and you feel really anxious yet excited at the same time? That’s something close to what I’m going through right now.

I have a lot of things planned such as: watching anime, eating, sleeping, catching up on some reading, playing video games… um, wait there’s more to that. But in all seriousness, while I appreciate the feeling of being able to look forward to something (since it doesn’t really come that often anymore) it’s also really important to me to savor the moments we’re living in right now. It’s something that I’ve come to learn since I’m about to close on the longest chapter of my life so far (high school) and I’m about to start on a brand new journey. I’m very grateful for all the lessons I’ve learned, joys and pains I’ve experienced and people that I’ve come to know about more deeply during the past years. And I’m even more grateful for having the opportunity of starting new.

Let the adventure begin!

The little Purple.Mage

Creating character…

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This post marks the start of the adventures of the little Purple.Mage. At this point in time, there has been so much going on in my life that I thought I’d document it with this new little character. Let us begin by sharing the story of her creation:

Right now, I’m in the middle of my final exams. While I expected to be more rattled than I am, I’m actually pretty calm. I’m not entirely sure if that’s a good thing or a bad thing. It’s more like I just look calm, when on the inside I sometimes start panicking. This is where the little Purple.Mage comes in. I drew her without any facial expressions so, like my outward appearance, she looks at peace (also, that’s the extent of my art skills).

However, the stuff by her side reflect what I’m really feeling on the inside. Currently, I feel really excited and in such a good mood that I’m about to start this new thing! It’s also another way for me to relax, just a little bit, before I study again.

Anyway, that’s the little story of her little creation. I hope I can draw and write some more in the coming days but it may be a while until the next post since I have a ton of exams this week.

Peace out!

The little Purple.Mage